Working Life

Worked @ Vivo yesterday. Damn boring loh. Its the first time that it was quite peaceful. Guess it was due to the rain, but at least there's some customers at times, if not I sure coma there. Lucky it was the last day yesterday, as I was entitled to work for a few days there. Gonna start work at Taka soon, but sadly its not Mphosis anymore. Working for Lanvin, so rich people please help me earn commission ok! HAHAHHAHA. Hope can learn their things fast.

Saw a number of familiar faces yesterday, but my mind was drifting away, somehow didnt notice them. But I'm happy to see them thou. Hope they are doing fine :) Didnt head to club due to some reasons, maybe some other time.

I want to eat Kway Chap!!!! HAHAHAHAHAH.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!! BUY YOU CIGRATTTTTTEEEEEEEEESSSSSS OK!

:D

"Which is worst, Love or Hate?"

You decide.

LURB LURB.

Me love?

Feeling really sian now, dont know what to type. Feel like typing the way I feel now, but I just couldnt find the words and I couldnt express out. I feel really damn Fucked up.

Am I doing the right thing? Is it letting out to someone really that difficult. I really dont know how to express this shit out. When I feel fucked up, I just say what I want without thinking. This is what makes me a CB thou. The more I say, the more shit it turns out. Its just shit lah.

Why am I doing things that harm myself, despite knowing there something important. I dont wanna drink, but it just the way to drown my sorrows. Its just childish. And the next day, I think of stuffs again. Its just stupid.

I promise to take care of myself, but promises become lies when unfulfill. I respect promises, but do I respect the promises I made for myself?

Why do I have to do childish things? Am I mad or what? Sigh.

To You:

I just dont know what to say, I hope we will go through this together, and await for the positive side of everything. I hope nothing happens and I hope we will lead this peacefully. I hope you feel the same too. I cannot predict the future, neither can you, so I'll just wait. I hope everything turns out fine. Just want to say I am sorry for everything. I hope I'll change thou. Less crazy? =)

I'VE GOT A TAN!!!!!!

23rd November 2007

Went DXO w Sueann and head there for a drinking session. The dancefloor was basically boring so she suggested heading outside to drink instead. For the first time in my life, I would like to say that I puke for the very first time. I was quite upset over a few stuffs and ended drinking like shit. I cant cry, but to drink. That's dumb and childish of me. And the worst thing was I puke infront of the lift right infront of people. So damn gross luh. But its ok, they wont remember my face, not like "someone-that-puke-in-zouk". HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH YOU KNOW WHO I MEAN.

After that headed to MOS for another drinking session. Met many interesting people.Supper, then home, died in bed and coma for 10 years.

24th November 2007

Headed Zouk with Sueann and dance for a while. Drank a little and headed to Mos again. Drink again, but this time wasnt gross at all. I thought I would puke again but now ok already.

Sounds like I'm crazy for clubbing, but actually not. Just wanna have fun and not to think about shitty things. The night is still young... HAHAHAHA. Thanks Sueann for giving me so much fun :)

25th Novemver 2007

Without any sleep, I went Sentosa to tan and kpo some floorball event. I am so fit luh. HAHAHAHA. It was a nice day out, thanks alot :) Shall go sentosa again soon. This time I need to tan my back. So happy to have a darker skin now, but not so even. Pictures soon :)

Misses~
Loves~

SENTOSA!

Went Sentosa on Wednesday [21st Nov]. My motive for going there is to tan and swim, but there is no sun. Somehow it drizzle instead. And I wanted to swim since it has been many years I've touch the water, but I somehow lost the stamina. And the moment I soaked into the water, my skin starts to rash. Damn sian loh. But its ok, I had a little sunburn though. Hope it doesnt peel like shit.

Made 7 sandwiches, just nice for all of us. Slack and play till end of day :D Pictures are with Dear Jana, upload soon.

Intend to club that night, but somehow I changed my mind. Need to find a day to club, gonna start my working life soon. Gonna work the very last day at Mphosis Vivo next week and I'm gonna work at Lanvin's. Thanks to Zoe that I got this job :) If not I think I will continue to nua and enjoy tai tai's life. HAHAAHHAHA.

After the first interview at Lanvin, I feel like working for them, but after the 2nd interview, I sian diao liao, dont feel like working for them liao, but a promise is a promise, gotta work for 2 months 1st bah. Any extra cash flowing in my pocket would be fine for me. Maybe after working there for a few times I'll enjoy it. Gonna miss working at Mphosis since I've been working there for almost a year.... Somehow there's a tiny little feelings for them although the people there at citylink kept changing. But its ok, I am happy anyway. HAHAHAHAHA.

Nothing much to blog about already. Just wanna post pictures the next time. Few that recently, I have lack of words to say. I dont know what to say anymore. So, adios momo chacha!

TIRED!

Been going out often despite cash flow problems. Dont feel like staying at home. Low cash flow can prevent me from taking cab and take the last bus almost everyday. Prevent from splurging on clothes and food, and only eat when I'm hungry. Must control for my Thailand trip!

Was supposed to head Malaysia for a holiday, but change my mind. The stuffs there are quite ex in certain areas, then decided to head Thailand in e end. Probably in January, which is after my dear friend wedding.

Currently not working, only headed to Vivo to work for 4 days. Worked for 2 days only, left 2 more days. Damn sian to work, boring luh.... but lucky Vivo is crowded enough, if not I will die there straight. But hope to get that job Zoe intro and then work for full December to have my cash flowing in my pocket.

Not much happening recently, went out club days before, both days MOS. Had lots of fun lah. Now cant club, no drinking, no chicka-dooing anymore. Must control.

Pictures?

Dear SILVEN :)

SKINNY :)

AH WAH :)

LADIES!!!

LURB LURB.

LOVES :)

Take 1

Take 2

Those were Ladies Night on Wednesday. Went with SKINNY, SILVEN, WANTING AND AH WAH. Quite fun though. Shall meet up with them sooooooooon :) Shall blog till here. Loves.

Misses.

Hmmm, I guess its e end of everything, back to single life after 3 years. Well, I am not used to it, but everything has a new beginning, so I gotta go back to a new start.

Sometimes, things dont go our ways, its either solve it or end it. Who would really wish to end it? I have got no choice. Everything takes time to heal ba.

Pretty upset but life still goes on, and I hope yours does too.

Thinking back of the past, the places we went, the food we ate, the love we shared, the time we've been together, I appreciate your time that you spent with me. Although I dont want the time to end, but things will come to an end no matter what. Humans greed alot, but I will have to stop when its enough.

Guess everything now will be part of our history, which cannot be returned anymore. I thank you for everything that you had tried to give the best that you could, though it wasnt enough, but I appreciate it. Although these 3 years I hadnt been doing much, just helping you when you are in trouble, doing the things that no one could ever do for you, but just hope you would feel happy about it. I never asked for much because of my shitty attitude, but for what I can do I can just give in to you. No one is perfect, but I know you are already the perfect one to me, and you are just someone would still stand in my heart for the time being. You are just someone that I wont forget, because these 3 years meant something for me. I have learnt alot from you.

I am happy that you are someone who can accept the way I am, the way I look, the way I carry my attitude and myself, the way I am always like this. The future cant predict if I were to find someone like you, who can accept e way I am, but I know you were someone who could. This is why I am glad that I had you.

Its normal for me to wonder now, 'What are you doing now', or 'Where had you been', and 'Who are you with now?'. I dont know if it explains something about how I felt, but I guess you might understand how I feel, and I know you will not feel the same, because for all I know, you are a strong person, who doesnt allow sorrows overcome you, who would always carry a smile with you. I dont want you to feel the same, as long as you are happy, that will do.

Its not the hurt and pain I have to endure, its the time that I've left I needed to endure.

I dont know what to say now, but I just wanna let you know I hope you are doing fine now, and I wish you happiness no matter what. I will be there if you need help, like how I used to do.

Time will heal everything, and I will have a new beginning. Patience :)

WOOOOOOO

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!!

Hmmm, lets see... I did studied, more hardworking than last year, but still, I dont if I am able to make it this year. Compared some answers with my classmates, I had quite a number of careless mistakes. So..... back to last year results? I dont know.

Wanted to change my blog today and upload chunks of pictures, but my sis had to download something using her lappy, so I cant use lappy. So guess I'll be heading Bishan later to look for SKINNY.

Went to dear Silven's birthday celebration at Bottom's up last Saturday. Didnt expect to spend a lot there as we thought the alcohol we ordered can hold up through the night. But the liqour went empty before 1am, and Wont be nice staying there w/o opening another bottle, so we all spent quite alot on another bottle. But still, 3am and the bottle went empty, and most of the people were seeing "stars" already, so we all started to head home. Wasnt drunk, but the next day, my tummy was feeling damn shitty loh.

And outing with Jana, Yk, JJ, Kelvin last Friday too. I met them at 6 but end up reaching at 7 plus I think. Damn the bus and traffic. Not really my fault. And I made them starved to death. Poor thingsss. HAHAHA. But also had fun lah. =)

And yesterday, went out with classmates to singing session. So worth to sing at chinatown. Only 10 per person, and the room is a nice and big, free flow of drinks and many many!!! HAHAHA. After that went dinner, tired people headed home and energetic Fatty, Jana, Erwin and JJ went to Clark Quay to play. That's about all. Pictures in Jana's camera. So will post pictures when I got the pictures =)

Shall stop here le. Its time for me to travel to Bishan. See you :D